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OK so officially I know I haven’t posted in quite a number of days but THIS is official time out!!
Need to sort out some brain stuff….reassess priorities etc. So I’m indulging in a mini break, not that I’m going anywhere you understand, but I’m zoning out till after the weekend, I’m just going to attempt to kick back and have an at home holiday…if that makes sense…
Quality time with me, myself and I and a few other family members thrown in insha’allah…for it wouldn’t do to be totally alone, not in my house anyway….
And you never know I may even come back enlightened and brimming with with important insights to share….;)
Is that I have a massive brain fog, that seems to not be lifting… I think I’m suffering from sleep deprivation..
I have insomnia, and sometimes when I’ve gone for a long while with too little sleep, I feel a bit zoned out, like I’m here but not really..hence the brain fog..
Anyway! the day is destined to continue whether I’m fit for it or not, so I guess it’s a case of sink or swim…
I’ve got a tajweed lesson looming at lunchtime, which brain fog or not is the only thing I seem to be mentally equipped for..surprisingly enough..I seem to be enjoying the challenge, it’s alot of information to store away in a head that’s usually very fickle about what it remembers, but for some reason, alhamdulillah I’m managing quite well masha’allah…
Which is more than I can admit to in other areas in my life right now..I’ve had chick peas soaking for two days now, that I was intending to turn into falafel, I’m going to have to look lively today otherwise they will be beyond saving…
And then I realised with guilt last night, when I was tossing and turning sleeplessly in my pit, that I have a list of crafty wanna do’s lurking on this blog that I haven’t tackled any of yet, so I’m going to have to start making some progress there too I think.
For some reason I seem to have a vague notion of making the weekend productive, I’m not entirely sure how one achieves something of this magnitude with what appears to be persistant fog on the brain, but have a go I shall insha’allah, even if it’s only clearing that pile of half finished sewn thingies that lurk on my sewing machine table…
I’m off now to mulch chick peas…
I’ll feel better when I’ve done that…
I’ll feel even more better when I’ve devoured a Hot falafel sandwhich with a welath of salad to cushion it and yummy tahina ozzing from it….
time for what?
well for thinking for a start, to clear my head and get some clarity! Trying to find time to worship Allah in the way He deserves to be worshipped. Trying to find the time to study, to broaden my mind, learn about my deen, find new ways of forging my relationship with Allah…
I’m in a bit of a funk right now…normal service will resume presently…insha’allah
OK so I’ve been tagged by Umm Hay and the deal is that I have to fess up about 10 weird or interesting things about myself then tag 6 more people….no tag-backs allowed…so here goes!
1. When I was younger my biggest ambition in life was to become a Carmelite Nun, I blame it on watching to many Nun movies as a kid!
2. I cant move the toes on my left foot, I broke them about a half a dozen years ago and didnt listen to any of the advice about physio (on toes!)
3 . I once shaved all my hair off, it snowed the day I shave my head..snow on bare scalp? OUCH
4. I almost, on the advice of a friend who was a (Bhuddist Monk) joined a Hari Krishna Temple!!!
5. I used to be a Punk, back in the day!!
6. I have a fear of the process of falling asleep but love being asleep..can you figure it out? I can’t!
7. I sang with my school choir at the Royal Albert Hall and the Royal Festival Hall
8. I once changed my name to Flossie just for the fun of it and my sister and neices STILL call me Flossie and NOT Kate..
9.I have one gold tooth, (a molar)
10.I once fractured my arm and had to have it screwed back together..my mum still has the screw they removed..yeuch
so there you go..
tagging maymie zeinab oum anas ok can’t think of anyone else who hasnt been tagged..lol..if I do i’ll be back!!
xxx
I’m craving structure and simplicity in my life, and I’m craving it and striving toward it so that I can busy myself with the more important things in life. The things that give our lives real meaning and real purpose. I think a looming hijrah has forced me to focus my attention on my eeman and ways in which I can bolster it, and keep it healthy enough for all the turmoil that lies ahead.
The tajweed lessons are helping, that in itself has required me to look at my mushaf in a new light and has made me realise just how little I understood about the language of the qur’an and the importance of knowing how to read it well. And I’ve begun to re-evaluate my life and look a bit more closely at the things that need changing. The past couple of years especially have been a challenge for me and mine and I think for the most part I’ve avoided doing anything other than dealing with the problems that we had at hand, mainly because they were so big and life changing in and of themselves, but now I have a need to take on some fresh challenges of my own choosing insha’allah. I’ve got seven months or so before we leave for Algeria and i’m determined to make them as productive as I possibly can in terms of my deen. My eeman took a real battering last time we went to DZ so I’m aware of a very real need to nourish and look after it before I leave this time round.
Anyway I have to make a dash for it now because the childrens lesson is coming to a close and then I’m heading upstairs for mine insha’allah…I’ve had a bit of trouble this week remembering the rule for meem sakinah, which is a bit worrying cos it’s the easiest rule apart from Iqlaab that I’ve learnt so far…probably having a brain fog inducing hormonal upsurge or summat!!!
