click your heels three times…..

and we might be in Algeria…. nothing more to be said onthe hijrah front as yet..packing continues….there is a family visit..us to them..next week insha’allah and also the promise of some tea and cake eating with my lovely sisters this week and hopefully next insha’allah …so after a pretty dismal start to the year..we seem to be heading towards the ease after the hardship which feel good masha’allah

at present DD5 is standing on the sitting room window ledge using scare tactics at passers by, which is amusing her greatly, and from the window I can see my boys lolling about on the street talking “boy things” with their friend a few doors down…
apart from that, and the huge amount of tennis we’ve been watching in our house over the past couple of weeks, things have just been rolling on slowly, however the difference now is that they’re rolling IN our direction as opposed to AWAY from us at the alarming rate they were a few weeks ago.

there has been plenty of outdoor play in the garden for the wee and not so wee ones
and some quiet family bonding which has been much needed and extremly rewarding masha’allah

alot of changes are waiting for us on the horizon insha’allah, and we’re looking forward to them with relish…I’m loathe to say anything more..fate feels like a fickle thing sometimes, so you’ll have to wait a little longer for the rest of our news insha’allah…..

soldiering on….

I’m becoming a bit inconsistent with my blogging lately I know…lots of things have been happening….unfortunately not the ones I wanted to happen, but thats qadr..and you can’t argue with it….

Sickness is making it’s way through the house again with the strange virus we had a few months back…one of the few pitfalls of having a large family is the fact that once illness hits it just keeps going round and round and round….and it begins to seem like it’s never going to shift…
Fortunately while sickness dwells within us, the builder have decided to grace us with their long awaited presence and have removed all but the toilet from the bathroom (including the toilet cistern!!) and they apparently wont be back in place till Friday! But hey! I have the eco loo I wanted and it’ll definately cut down water consumption for the week masha’allah…

what else??? hijrah..we dont talk about!!
cars!! we dont talk about!!!!
Mechanics..we have evil thoughts about……

the strange thing is..all this living out of boxes and cases is doing strange things to me…it’s making me crave domesticity…..I mean I’m dreaming decorating and new furniture…..and having a proper…..structure!!!!
it’s all very scarey….not sure I like it!!!!

mmm….nowt to say…have some pictures…

things……

that came to mind this morning….

*the fact that I’m feeling stifled by “stuff”…all I want to do is grab enough to keep me going and run away..I’m hugely irritated by the fact that “stuff” belonging to us has become so important that it warrents it’s own trip overseas to get settled before I can….this is WRONG!!!!

*that I think I’m slowing down internally…I seem to be folding in on myself and sinking in to my own thoughts…I’ve become very quiet..this is not like me….I think I may be depressed…or perhaps just a bit miffed by the fact that I’m STILL stuck somewhere I don’t want to be…

*I think I want to try and write again..and spend some time taking pictures that will make my heart sing….

smoothie

smoothie

Originally uploaded by Seeking-Taqwa

We’re on a health kick…those of us that can  be bothered that is….

so what better way to start the day than a fruit smoothie…

here’s what went in the blender…

4 bananas
2 cups of mixed berries
a BIG tub of live brimming with friendly bac..bio yogurt
and a generous swipe of honey….

several cups of that and a probio capsule (thats an extra 4 billion friendly bacs!!) and I feel….happy….
not entirely well…..but happy
I’ve got a friendly bac party going on in my gut!!!!!

and then there were pics………

in my head today…

I’m trying to be more focused on the things available to me in the present…and to not look too far ahead..

I’m trying to let life happen rather than rushing at things in a desperate bid to make them happen before they can..

I need to be more aware that life will happen according to the way it’s being planned FOR me, irrespective of what I might be planning

I need to be more concious of my creator…and show more thankfulness for all the blessings I have had and currently have…

I want to learn to be more still…..

there are a couple of things…

that I can’t promise you…. one of them is pictures for this post…because it is officially the season of broken bluetooths (or should that be teeth??) and and lost USB’s…and the other thing I can’t promise you is any clear idea of when I might find the USB or buy another bluetooth so that I can start uploading pictures to make this place an interesting place to be in…

the upside of all this is that we really haven’t been doing anything worth photographing anyway….

the house is almost packed..and is feeling like a pretty miserable place to be in…if we could all run away tomorrow we would…but I’m still waiting to get my passport back from the Irish embassy..and as much as I’d like to try it..I don’t think I’m going to get very far without it….so for the mean time..we wait to book tickets…we live out of suitcases..or in my case a rucksack..in our own “home” (it hasn’t felt like one for a long time)…we’ve stopped shopping for food on anything but a daily basis..cos we just don’t know from one day to the next when we might be leaving..which means that cooking itself has become pretty basic…no homemade bread..no putting food by….just alot of making do…which is fairly fun in the short term…but we’re anxious now to get the balll rolling and have a fresh start insha’allah..

all the crafting things have been packed..so there’s nothing of that sort going on either…lots of reading going on though..and walks to the park at the end of our street, now that spring has made it’s appearance…

it’s a time for taking stock and focusing the mind…quiet afternoons spent in contemplation of what has been and what is to come….that, and a bit more packing..we’re on a hunt to find the missing USB..which we think we might have packed by mistake….so you know what that means don’t you!!!

a spot of gardening???

So, after being forced into an extra long period of R&R….we look forward to the summer insha’allah and the changes that lie ahead….not many of which can be discussed as yetbut in time…I will divulge insha’allah
I’ve spent much of the afternoon looking at seeds…and deciding which to buy…. a spot of gardening looms bi’idhnillah….
As for crafting..there is something on it’s way…DD18 and I are making a blanket together for a very special little boy who has just made his entry into the world masha’allah
so we might just have a craft inspired picture to show you sometime soon….keep em peeled

transition…

many things have happened over the past few months.. and it’s started a whole new process of thought for me, and sent me travelling in some new directions insha’allah. I’ve had time for positive reflection and this period of on-going illness has started to bring me closer to Allah and made me more self aware than I have been for years masha’allah. Forgive me for not being around so much..but I’ve been trying to let this phase of my life just “happen” for a while to see where it carry me insha’allah. So I’m just taking each day as it comes and am trying to nurture my eman to live a more Allah concious and faith filled life….ameen